Friday, August 14, 2009

Coldness


I almost had enough. A lot of things happened lately and I don’t know if he’s doing it on purpose to provoke me or to tell me something he doesn’t want to say in words. Then now his coldness. I almost snapped last night.

I went out of the office early but I didn’t go home straight but decided to check my emails on the net instead. I dropped by the department store to buy my partner his dose of chocolate. I picked Hershey’s this time. Then head home.

I arrived at the pad and he was not home yet. I texted him to ask him where is he, he didn’t reply. So I put the chocolate near the jug so he could see it (because he always drinks juice first when he arrives, that also explains the jug on our room), then took a bath and decided to take a nap. I decided not to wait for him.

When he finally arrived home he woke me up and told me to stand up first so he could fix the sheets (malikot kase ako matulog). He took a bath and I waited for him to finish so I could make lambing lambing before I finally sleep.

After he dressed himself with his sleeping clothes I hugged him.

“Ano ba?” he angrily rejected me.

“Ok. If that’s what you want. Then that would be the last,” I responded. I went back to bed and tried to sleep. Bwisit ka nasabi ko sa isip ko. Napahiya ako. How rude of you to do that. When ikaw ang naglambing lambing kahit I’m tired I don’t complain. Hindi lang kase ito ‘yung una eh.

Konti na lang. Ayoko na talaga. Almost had enough. I really don’t understand him anymore or maybe may iba na yata talaga. Naisip ko eyebags ko kaya pinilit ko makatulog. Sayang at baka mabawasan pogi points ko.

Later I will have a sleep over sa friends house ko. I won’t tell him basta I just don’t want to go home tonight. Bad trip. I don’t usually do this but there’s always a first. I have to do something na.

Abangan nyo na lang kung saan mapupunta to. Break-up or make love. Whatever the case I’ll let you know.

Xoxo

The Curious Cat

P.S. Image is courtesy of http://www.damiengallagher.com/images/Cold%20and%20Lonely%20Tree.jpg

19 comments:

  1. lahat ng problem nadadaan sa maayos na usapan. lalo pa love mo ang involve.

    =D

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  2. I understand how it feels. I am here... we are all here. You're not alone :-D

    As I always tell my best friend, "kung ang daga nga pagkinuryente natututo. Tao pa kaya?"

    Mahirap sa simula pero, ikaw na rin mismo and susuko pag napagod ka na at magdedesisyon na it's time na.

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  3. if communication, verbal or otherwise wont work, cut him loose. love is always a two way street. :)

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  4. i like trips comment. cutting people loose-love being a two way street, i have to learn that hard. pronto

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  5. Hope whatever you're going through, you work it out with your partner. but if it's beyond repair already, make sure that before you make your decision, you're already prepared for what's going to come after. breakups are never an easy thing.

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  6. mas maganda ang mag-usap kayo before you decide na makitulog sa iba.

    pili ka lang ng nice words, have a good delivery sa mga sasabihin... mmm,di naman siguro kabawasan sayo kung kahit na naiinis ka ay may lambing ang iyong pagtatanong ukol sa inaasal nya lately.

    hapi wkend!

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  7. Tingnan muna kung maayos nyo pa. Ganun talaga eh.

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  8. @Prince Oo naman, pero parang ako lang may ginagawa na effort. nakakapagod na. dapat dalawa kayo diba.

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  9. @The green man may mga bagay kase na nangyayari sa buhay nya na d nya kontrolado. lagi nya sinasabi na minamalas talaga sya. ang negative na nya sa buhay pre. kaya lagi naman ako nasa tabi nya. pero parang hindi nya ako pinapakingan. parang binabalewala. napapagod din nman kahit sino nasa posisyon ko. ayoko din mang-iwan sa taong mahal mo pa sa ganitong sitwasyon.

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  10. @Trip oo nga trip. kaso ayaw ko naman kase iwanan siya na hindi maganda ang buhay nya. dami din nya bigla issues. nawawalan na sya ng confidence. napapansin ko nga na parang nagpopower trip sya minsan sa akin kase ako na lang kaya nya.

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  11. @Prince I wish I had the courage now.

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  12. @The closet gentleman I know, been through with that sa past relationships ko pero parang ang hirap pa rin. d ko pa rin kakayanin everytime.

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  13. @Jason makitulog lang talaga 'yun. not involving romantic or sex. bahay 'yun ng friend ko na pwede ko takbuhat, minsan lang kase umuuwi ng pinas 'yun kaya ginrab ko na din.

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  14. @Dagger I'm still holding on hangang kaya pa. pero napapagod na ako.

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  15. as my friendship j always tells me, pag mahal mo gagawin mo ang lahat ng paraan to stay.

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  16. sometimes you just have to read between the lines. take it easy bro.

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  17. Cut him loose??? I disagree! Do you know the question "how does relationship work?"? They call it work because it is work. You don't get things easy. You have to work for it. Honeymoon stage in the relationship lasts for just the first 3-6 months. After that, you have to work to make things work. Live in reality and not the fantasy I always say.

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